Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Social/Private, Entertaiment and EVERYTHING

The Intro

It has been a long time since I drop by a blog. After studies, I just can't often go online anymore. I am really lazy. Now, I'm broke, with no cash in my purse but I still go on. I realize, each time I can't really sleep, at the end of the day, I'll drop a blog.

Friends?

Recently, a lot of things has happen. I was surprise of all the outcome. Firstly, my friends has financial problems that seems endless. I can't help out because I have no money and the ability to help them. Also, it seems that X is close to M now. I mean, she should know better how M was like. X will never learn until she has the situation herself. At the meantime, J has present me, for my birthday, a Cosplay Corset. But the problem is I have to buy:

  • Black Velvet Stokings
  • A pair of black and red socks
  • Shoes to match
  • and Skirt (Not too short)
Thanks J, for buying the corset for me.

Secondly, my best friend ditch me for her boy as well. Everywhere, she has to bring that stupid boy of hers. It's like, I know you have a boyfriend but don't push it sista! I can't take it anymore than she can. Always acting mushy mushy IN FRONT OF MY FACE! I'm not jealous. It's just that, sometime, I wnated to talk to her ALONE. I mean, PRIVATE CONVO. But noooooooooo..she has to drag her bf along. Geez~

Relationship?

It is not going as smoothly as possible. You see. I'm insecure. I have no confidence in myself. apart from that, I'm not a beautiful or somewhat perfect chick. I have piercings but no tattoos. I did smoke. But not addicted and it's just trying. it's like a three four times thing. I drive like a crazy maniac and I'm rebellious. I have a boyfriend. He is TALL, FAIR and HANDSOME. But somehow, I believe that I can't connect with him in some reason. I don't know what he is thinking.

Studies?

One word; STRESS! Everytime I have that stress thing, I was like, how lucky if I were to get a job and have money to spend. Well, that dreaming will have to end. Study life is like a living HELL. Ilove to study. But if it makes my money go BYE BYE, then I should not study anymore.