Little details

Another boring day.
Preparing myself to work.
There's so many things happen man.
Feels like it's a dream.
Waiting for my salary to come out.
Maybe tonight.
Hopefully tonight.
Once I get my salary, piercing here I come!
If still got time, I'd get a tattoo too.
Woot!!!

Cheeers!!!!

Skies and Suns

Camera: K810i

Time: Unknown

Life is like a boat.



It sways and sways until at a certain point, it stops.



It also resembles the sun.



and the skies too.

Suns comes and go.

So is the skies.

Sometimes it will rain and sometimes it will shine.



but after everything, sunset is always the best thing.

Happy always people!

Yet another day

I can't sleep.
Might as well just blog.
I've been skipping class for 4 days straight.
I don't know why I would do this, but believe me, it wasn't pretty.

Like I was saying, I did nothing the whole day.
Stayed at home and rot.
I fought with Mr. Emo.
Sigh.
I'm not sure what is wrong with him.
I wouldn't criticize.
I sprained my ankle on Tuesday.
Sigh~
Pain as it is.
Sad.

Mr. Mouse wanting a new car.

I'm thrilled to hear it from him.
Although it will lead to everyday going out, late come back.
I'll support you, Mr. Mouse.
Miss you too.

Send Mr. Branded to work today.
He is so funny at times.
Lol.
But I wouldn't want to cross him.

MSN with Ms. Strawberry and Ms. Princess today.
Princess told me about her friend and the doctor check up.
Not going to write it too.

Mum and I went to Jusco and bought a lot of stuff, including my favourite beer, Tuborg!
Woo Hoo!
When will I ever going to opened it.

Ends the night with foot massage with mum and watching vampire bats eating humans.

Disappointed

Let me tell you one simple thing.

If it wasn't for her, would you have food in your stomach?

If it wasn't for her, would you have money to study all your fucking life?

If it wasn't for her, you wouldn't be here.

If it wasn't for her, you wouldn't have money to drink your shit out.

If it wasn't for her, you wouldn't talk, scream, jump, or do anything at all.

I hate when you trying to say that your friends are way better.

I know! I've been through.

But note to yourself.

If you really think that your friends are better, I advice you to just take your clothes and nothing else.

Seemingly that money, car and even your laptop is her's.

You are so young, yet you never learn how to be mature for once.

Yes, you saying I'm dumb, stupid.

I was born that way.

I can't study, that's because I played a lot.

I'm dumb because I made it myself to be that way.

I gave up easily because I failed so damn many times.

You say you came back, everyday.

Into an empty house.

But have you ever consider to get a job?

You don't know how it feels to get hurt by someone so close.

You think that all your life is so suffering.

Have you ever wonder what it feels like to be her?

What it feels like to even pay for school, college. In other words Educations!

Have you ever think that, if you were to come back, one day, all of us gone.

Would you be happy?

I know you would!

You would be happy if we are gone for good.

I listen, but do you?

I came back home, not an empty house but a stressful environment.

That's because when YOU come back, YOU went up straight to your room as if you are not part of this.

You felt like "all they think about is my friends are bad, scum, shit, whatever"

But do you think that, you are living the life, better than me.

You want to go HELP, I can rest assured, without me persuading them, you wouldn't be in HELP!

They would think it's unfair to me.

But I was thinking "what the hey! She needs it more than I do."

If you felt all this than move!

Take your clothes, and only your clothes and move!

Leave your room, car, money,everything that belongs to her.

Leave it!

Let me tell you one thing more!

Even your body belongs to her!

Another stressful shit.

It's been a long tiring day.
Lots of work on PR.
Just bought the materials today.
Planning to get everything done before Wednesday.
Sigh. I think, if I keep on doing this, I'll die of unfortunate events.
Which I wish it was that easy.
But Hitomi made me realize I can't die now.
Life needs to be enjoyed.

For now, I'm suffering the hell I am.
Planning to wear green tomorrow.
Lol.

End the night with finishing chapter two of Death Beneath the Black Rose.

Emptiness

Here it goes.
There's nothing interesting about this blog but why bother reading it.
Anyways, I gotta express ain't it?

As you all know, I kinda hanging here because of my studies.
I'm trying very hard to get good grades bla bla.
But still, things keep pulling me back.
I never get to relax.
I kinda have the thought of people who can't study.
Sigh.

I'm going all numb again.
Nevermind, the least I could do is making people laugh so hard and making myself laugh until my tears com out.
The thing about the tears is that it is not happy tears.
It's sad tears.
Tears of regret.
Tears of hatred.
Never happy.
I'm trying so hard to hide it.
But in the end, I'm here, writing feelings on a blog.

I wasn't like that.
No one or anything cause me to be like this.
Is not that I don't like my life.
People won't get satisfied.

I just finish checking emails and Facebook.
Trying to do everything before I went to bed and continue Chapter 17 around 3 am plus.
My story so far? There are few people reading it.
I took up Eugene's words.
"Write it for yourself to read, not for others"
Sigh.
At least I understand my own language.

Another shouting has occur.
I don't understand why they all have to do this, especially him.
It's not that I hate him or anything, it's just that, it's the middle of the night, You're old and needs to rest.
If she wants to go with her friends, let her.

She.
It's already been ages since she has us in her broken heart.
She's fragile, I know.
But too dependent.
Always think of childish stuff.
She thinks that she's has those I-don't-depend-on-you thoughts, but also, you can't make up your own money to get your educations.
Whatever it is, how old we all are, we still will depend on them no matter what.
Even if they die.

I have no one to talk to...

No one to listen...

All I can do is just use my fingers and type these words one by one...

From now on...

NO MORE ME...

No mood No mood!!!

Damn!

I am so pissed!

It's so near Chinese New Year and all that is loaded is assignments and presentation.

My group members and me also got this Valentine thing going on.

It's so soon.

Too soon.

I know we were given two weeks before but sure enough people want to have the mood to celebrate CNY.

But now, no mood already.