Emptiness

Here it goes.
There's nothing interesting about this blog but why bother reading it.
Anyways, I gotta express ain't it?

As you all know, I kinda hanging here because of my studies.
I'm trying very hard to get good grades bla bla.
But still, things keep pulling me back.
I never get to relax.
I kinda have the thought of people who can't study.
Sigh.

I'm going all numb again.
Nevermind, the least I could do is making people laugh so hard and making myself laugh until my tears com out.
The thing about the tears is that it is not happy tears.
It's sad tears.
Tears of regret.
Tears of hatred.
Never happy.
I'm trying so hard to hide it.
But in the end, I'm here, writing feelings on a blog.

I wasn't like that.
No one or anything cause me to be like this.
Is not that I don't like my life.
People won't get satisfied.

I just finish checking emails and Facebook.
Trying to do everything before I went to bed and continue Chapter 17 around 3 am plus.
My story so far? There are few people reading it.
I took up Eugene's words.
"Write it for yourself to read, not for others"
Sigh.
At least I understand my own language.

Another shouting has occur.
I don't understand why they all have to do this, especially him.
It's not that I hate him or anything, it's just that, it's the middle of the night, You're old and needs to rest.
If she wants to go with her friends, let her.

She.
It's already been ages since she has us in her broken heart.
She's fragile, I know.
But too dependent.
Always think of childish stuff.
She thinks that she's has those I-don't-depend-on-you thoughts, but also, you can't make up your own money to get your educations.
Whatever it is, how old we all are, we still will depend on them no matter what.
Even if they die.

I have no one to talk to...

No one to listen...

All I can do is just use my fingers and type these words one by one...

From now on...

NO MORE ME...