It's amazing how people change when they started college. I'm stated about myself. It has been a big change for me. I don't know why but I felt that everything change around me. My dad being responsible and my mum stop worrying about my education. I was shocked when I heard my dad started to collect money to let me go University. Sometimes I am touched but other times I appreciate them.
Apart from all that, MY COLLEGE MATE AND GROUP MATE SUCKS! I hate one person only. Her name is SY. She is a very lazy girl. She expected me to do everything in one go. I was like "Your face is already ruining my breathing environment. How could I possibly finish everything?" I didn't say I can't. Basically is English. It's easy. Anyway, I was ok with everything until she came and ask me about the assignment. FINE! You take my answer. ASS!
Above all this crap, I found out that my relationship has a slight problem also. I was so sad. But my boyfriend is not there. I didn't blame him because he is working and I don't want to add in more stress to him. All I need to do is to give him a chance to prove that he could go on on his own. I want him to be strong and not let anyone simply step on his head. But I know I can't tell him all this because we'll end up debating. In the end, he sleeps soundly on his bed and I was far away thinking of negative thought about him. When I really tell him this, He would've said me "always think negative. should trust your lao gong". It's not that I don't trust him, is just that sometimes I WILL think of stuff that is not true. What if the stuff I was thinking is really TRUE? What if he REALLY is having an affair? These are all the things I thought. It is hard to be me. I'm not a good girl friend. I admit I'm not a good girlfriend because I never trusted my guys. Previous ones also same. This time i DON'T really know what to do already. Might as well just let it be.
These few nights keep meeting the twins. I met my primary friend, Sonia. She changed a lot. But still funny as before. Her facial features change. I met new friends like Fuzan, and Drake. It was cool to hang with them. Although they are those rebellious and also smoking and stuff, but they are great friend to hang with. We share problems. All of us. We will sometimes go JJ and buy Tako Tako and play drums. It was a real blast and I have a real stress free life.
At home, parents too controlling. I know it is their nature to be like that but at least give me a free time. I was stress at work before and now at college. I need a break also. but never did they think of my stress. Just think of safety. That particular day, I went out with the Twins and Drake plus Jan and Thanesh. Both of my phones died. But at least before I get home I called my sister. As soon as my sister pick up, I straightaway tell her that I'm coming home. I was shocked when she told me that both of our parents go out and find me. I was like. FUCK!! Not again. Man! That's like the worse. Then when I get home, SAFELY. He opened the door like there's nothing happen. Then he started to cry in front of my mum first. I was bathing that time. My mum just burst in. I was like. Enough! At work stress. At college even tension. At home, no PRIVACY! OH MY GOD! I just relaxed myself and go to their bedroom. In fact, both of them are crying. Man, I was like ok. Just go hug them and they will stop. The next day I have class, of course need to get up early.
My life are always this complicated even everyday life. I can tell anybody about it. Even if everyday I have to write at least three blogs.
