Is to hard to be crazy?

It has been a while since I place a blog about my life. Long story short, I am now a married women and pregnant with my first child. Problem is I have been having strange dreams about husband cheating on me and it's the same dream all over again and again. I don't think I should even care if he comes home every night because I hate him to guts. But when he texted me saying " tonight will be late again. Project Manager asked me to send the workers back." It's ridiculous as in why a project manager and him, supervisor need to send those illegal workers back home instead he could just come home early. I threaten him again by saying I will abort this infant and divorce with him. I want my life back....